Thanksgiving Weekend in Toronto (Canada) for a lot my readers outside of here. This weekend gave me insight in my life. I picked up this book to read called “The Purpose-Driven Life” its written by Rick Warren. Damn.. the first few pages had me hooked and was already changing the way I think, believe it or not. I feel that I was rushing my life and never got a chance to enjoy the good moments. I feel blessed with dope people around me, that has given me strength to be where I am now. Its hard to figure out this life stuff sometimes, you never know what can happen, who you will end up with, where you will be in the next 5 years. I just hope people understand that I prefer to pray about it, and let everything be in Gods will. I won’t push for anyone or anything unless it’s truly is for me and only time will tell. God has a plan for my life, He gave me life so I might as well follow is orders. So whether or not I want something to happen, If God don’t want it for me…Its because He has something better for me in mind, I will just trust in Him.
I’m just going to vent a bit. I am extremely frustrated with people in this Entertainment Business I live passionately for. First thing is first, if your my homie before your an entertainer please note that we are in business together please leave that personal issue you have with me aside from it. People out there will forever talk about me, or talk into people ears about me, I have no control over that and really I don’t care for it. So with all that said now, are you really going to sit there bring up past issues you have with me?Since you have nothing recent to say about me, delete me off berry (which only shows your a child and can’t handle being a man yet) and think that I’m the one doing you wrong when me and my team helped you. The nerve of some people I tell you, they forget so easily what people have done for them, so I say you know what… GOOD RIDDENS!
On a lighter Note I’m going with my homie NEEKS to see SECRETS OF A BLACK BOY!!!
I feel like the walls are crashing down, so bittersweet. I wish I can undo the past as much as they say it paves the future, I like my past so much I would love to take another stab at it for another year. I feel lost at times. I can’t trust people as much as I tend to be everyone’s crutches. Do people usually forget everything you do for them, if you do too much? I can’t help not being who I am, naturally I like to help but damn wheres the good karma at? I just want to be sheltered with some happiness, its all I ask for… is that too much to ask?
Ron D.
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I haven’t been in brightest moods lately, I tried to get cheered up by visiting friends but it feels as though that doesn’t help. I don’t understand why everything has to end up in some kind of convo where I’m the jerk, or you know F*ck me. Sometimes friends always tell me “why don’t you see things from my angle, step in my shoes” okay cool, how about now YOU step in my shoes its not all what it should be either. I’m so tired of being judged by people, when they have no idea what the situation really is, it feels like everyone assumes some shit and tries to bring it to me, for what reason? I don’t f*cking know! I don’t even know what to expect from people or what people expect from me. I wonder that if one day when I do pass…wtf will people remember me for… will all the things I did do for em’ be remembered then, will I finally be rewarded for all the sh*t I do for others, or will I be looked at just another soul that lost his life. I know it’s sinful to speak about death, but come on… like really I know everyone does think about or has. I woke up today, and thought F- all this B.S. coming my way, that goes to everyone bringing it to me the past 2 weeks. I’m gonna stop acknowledging the belligerent minds that speak my name and have no clue what they are talking about. I think that the unfortunate events caused by me happen for a reason as corny as that may sound. I think that I need to enjoy what I have now because who knows what my future will bring. I just hope that my best of todays will be the worst of my tomorrows!
Mama said to me that:
Believe everything happens for a reason. Believe people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
